回顾2011年 

对抗被抛弃的恐惧，奋力一搏 

上半年可谓在一种低气压中度过，这种“即将引爆的什么”隐形的迫使魔羯“得做些改变，努力转型”，但过往形象，场面，信用也把魔羯卡的死死的，无法轻松转身，这种被钳制又无法突破的感觉真是相当大的压力，就因为知道“再不转变，拿不出成绩”连自己都不会原谅自己，深怕过气，也可能是家有转变，自己，家人也都面临人生的重大转折，样样烦心；也许是长官施压，机会骤减让人不敢停歇，虽然魔羯把一切都处理得像“貌似自己很低调”，但难掩奋力一搏只为翻身的压力感，在一波又一波的黑湖下努力游，吃力“杀出血路”只因为····魔羯太害怕“被遗弃”。 

而被遗弃的恐惧如此直扑而来，每件事都逼迫着魔羯必须“直视自己底限”，其实这很残忍，不管是职场还是生活领域中，路若越走越窄就意味着该换别条路了，但在意识到这点之前，只感受到自己被逼到极限角落，非常不开心。职场还算好办，有错就改，努力撑住，毕竟魔羯工作诚意有目共睹，吃苦不算什么。最可怕的是“原来自己已经过气”或“就要被抛弃了”，所以某个压力最大的当下就可能做出“惊人的决定”，包括开始或者结束一段感情，婚姻，情绪失控，暴走，生活秩序崩溃，被迫重整，突然置产等，都是张力下的压力反应。 

于是，被可怕阴影追赶的魔羯，纷纷在上半年有了“突破性的作为”就为了能在“走在黑潮前一点点”，让自己生存下来。真的辛苦了，在内外夹杀下虽然有争取到一些成绩，突破，跨越却也惊魂未定，因为“依然有血路要杀”。（抱抱经受苦难的各位魔羯们） 

只能说，过去一年残酷的要魔羯直视自己的本质与赤裸裸的真相，包括过去的名声让别人觉得现在的你没有成绩，被定为成旧时代的人，或觉得你没有想象中那么好，其实勇敢面对的人会发现并不冤枉，因为“这些都是过往的累积”造成，所以这波“清算”一路上得罪谁，被人排斥，脱离某个圈圈等，也算是趁机清理门户，“可以不用再应酬，理会”或“你们排斥我，我也可以放下你们”，放下过往，重新开始，未曾不是件好事。某个角度来看，魔羯的新开始保留了他的格调，也是环顾四周之后，最好的重新出发。 

幸而到了去年下半年气氛转变，魔羯纷纷接招，出招了，也许是端出作品，也许是时开口发声，也许是表现个性，魔羯用华丽的方式为自己寻找出口，那些冒险的企图与想法开花结果成为“我要什么”那些惊人的决定，人生急转弯，奋力一搏终把魔羯带向新的定位，不论评价如何，魔羯已无退路，只能往前看不能后悔。大跳跃之后虽然是另一个未知，但说真的，争取的新身份已不见得需要外界的认同了，因为“不认同又如何”？怎样都比停在原地等着被抛弃好吧?现在也只求自己舒服最重要，无需回头看也无需后悔。 

的确，从去年下半年开始，魔羯们有了“很大的跨越”，更敢“做自己”，更想表达，更敢公开，谈了恋爱，甚至生了孩子，生活情景与过去的死气沉沉完全不同了，也许是宁可“华丽到令人不解”吧。这样的急转变其后座力连魔羯自己都在适应中，至少需观察个一两年才会渐渐明白，也许透过2012,2013年人们对自己的评价，自己能否适应，人们接受度如何才能有结论，看了三年都看不懂的人也才终于知道：“原来什么是你要的”。

It’s a book published by 唐立淇 who is from Taiwan. Those who have always watch “nu ren wo zui da” will know who is she After reading about what she say for those Capricorn people (in year 2011), I suddenly felt a mixture of feeling dashing across my mind. Because IT’S SO FREAKING TRUE. Indeed I had a hard time fighting the battle in 2011. And I often wonder to myself, am I doing the right thing? Is this me? What do I exactly want? Should I continue to stay or move on? But it’s me, it just me. It’s just that I don’t want to continue living as a silent sheep. I admit I am afraid, that’s why I keep working hard. Because I need assurance. Assurance in everything. I don’t need to be famous. But I want to get recognized in the things that I work hard for. That’s all and simple. But somehow the path had made my way become complicated.

Jia you for 2 more months meow.

Hi 2012, my name is meow hui. Hope you and I will become best friends this year. Looking forward to the things that we will doing together. I had leave behind the bad and unhappiness memories that 2011 had given me and I’m bringing forward the good memories with me. I hope we will create more good memories together so that I could bring forward to my next friend. I know this isn’t going to be an easy year, but I hope I am able to challenge and overcome the difficulties that I had bump into. I hope 2012 will accompany me by letting me spend my days and time well.
*Cheers!!*

2011 actually had been a happening year for me. A year that I truly learnt a lot of things. From studies to working world to human. Thinking on the positive side, it had been a fruitful year.
All and all it had made me become a stronger person.

Thanks and BYE! 2011!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! 

My brain cells is suck out by all sorts of programming languages. Can i even complete the tasks within the time limit?
Well if only.

Another M.A.C collection in my make up pouch! Love the first two shade the most! Wasn’t too red and pink, nice warm color teehee!! So excited to try it out!

O.M.G! Love the bling bling!! So damn bling!! Don’t care if this suit Galaxy II , once I get the phone this will be that phone first wife! HA! Can’t stop looking at that two word

OF course, thanks to my lovely sister who gave me this two gifts!

P.S This year received a lot of make up! Firstly I brought 40bucks of make up stuffs, then yeqing brought my first ever make up palette. Now my sis brought me blusher! Really need to buy a bigger pouch already

Merry Christmas everyone! Enjoy my Christmas with BFF this year! Every year on this date, it will definitely be an unforgettable ones. Great memories that can be added into 2011 list  
Dine in at Watami at The Central, food was great but sadly the organisation of the seats wasn’t great. However we did made alot of laughters and made a lot of silly acts haha!
Another unforgettable events was that The Central was mass spamming bubbles! ON MY FREAKING GOD! It’s was so damn nice! Bubble flowing into the air like little piece of snow falling from the sky. The view was “awwwww”

Receive my xmas present from yq! My first ever Coastal Sand make up palette! WOOHOO! (Y)(Y) Thanks ye!
A joyful season, a happy mood!  

So did my wish came true? Hmm half half?
Did came true for the first wish. Which was great
Suffer a bit for my second wish to came true.
Third wish? I don’t if I still have the strength and determination to go on.

Greatest memories? I guess it will be my IPP and FYP. Met great working people during my IPP. They taught me alot of things, they make me knew that if you are willing to do, eventually you will get what you want. With them around, I just always have that sense of positiveness and motivation to do my work. Indeed positive people spread positiveness around
Met great working team mates in FYP. Had a super lots of fun during that one month in Suzhou, how I think time will stop there…

That’s it. My enjoyable and happiness days for 2011 end right after I came back to Suzhou.
Chaos chaos and more chaos.