It’s ending.

浮浮沉沉裡太多路過人　卻與你走近
這是緣份　曾是我心愛情人
糊糊塗塗裡也許合後必分
令我跌進黑暗　如臨末日般被困
計算內這樣事情原是沒可能
可惜最終　仍是發生

仍然是發生　當刻骨的愛飄散似灰塵
你也許不信　你也許不知道
長久以後感覺這傷痕
從未發生　當天可親你總算我福份
現在縱使失去　而知道被他替代當你一半
多少有點興奮

沉沉迷迷裡愛得極放任　沒有與你終老
這是遺憾　無奈也出現裂痕
迷迷糊糊如墮入日月星辰
沒法再看通透　前路像驟光驟暗
計算內這樣事情原是沒可能
不想發生　仍是發生

仍然是發生　當刻骨的愛飄散似灰塵
你也許不信　你也許不知道
長久以後感覺這傷痕
從未發生　當天可親你總算我福份
現在縱使失去　而知道被他替代當你一半
多少有點興奮

9 more days to end of my core project presentation.
25 more days to end of my last exam in poly.
This is how fast time passed. But I still don’t know which role should take after poly. Or rather to be exact Singapore don’t have such course.

So let be practical, accept the fact, face the face and take the same old boring course again. 

闷闷的气。

摩羯座

2011年，魔羯一直在低气压中度过，被钳制又无法突破的感觉真把魔羯卡的死死的，有突破性的作为，纷纷接招，出招，用华丽的方式为自己寻找出口。 
2012年初魔羯开始在舞台发光，转战的领域受到尊重，好评。变的有自信，开心，更享受当下，魔羯紧张的心情终于可以释放了········ 

回顾2011年 

对抗被抛弃的恐惧，奋力一搏 

上半年可谓在一种低气压中度过，这种“即将引爆的什么”隐形的迫使魔羯“得做些改变，努力转型”，但过往形象，场面，信用也把魔羯卡的死死的，无法轻松转身，这种被钳制又无法突破的感觉真是相当大的压力，就因为知道“再不转变，拿不出成绩”连自己都不会原谅自己，深怕过气，也可能是家有转变，自己，家人也都面临人生的重大转折，样样烦心；也许是长官施压，机会骤减让人不敢停歇，虽然魔羯把一切都处理得像“貌似自己很低调”，但难掩奋力一搏只为翻身的压力感，在一波又一波的黑湖下努力游，吃力“杀出血路”只因为····魔羯太害怕“被遗弃”。 

而被遗弃的恐惧如此直扑而来，每件事都逼迫着魔羯必须“直视自己底限”，其实这很残忍，不管是职场还是生活领域中，路若越走越窄就意味着该换别条路了，但在意识到这点之前，只感受到自己被逼到极限角落，非常不开心。职场还算好办，有错就改，努力撑住，毕竟魔羯工作诚意有目共睹，吃苦不算什么。最可怕的是“原来自己已经过气”或“就要被抛弃了”，所以某个压力最大的当下就可能做出“惊人的决定”，包括开始或者结束一段感情，婚姻，情绪失控，暴走，生活秩序崩溃，被迫重整，突然置产等，都是张力下的压力反应。 

于是，被可怕阴影追赶的魔羯，纷纷在上半年有了“突破性的作为”就为了能在“走在黑潮前一点点”，让自己生存下来。真的辛苦了，在内外夹杀下虽然有争取到一些成绩，突破，跨越却也惊魂未定，因为“依然有血路要杀”。（抱抱经受苦难的各位魔羯们） 

只能说，过去一年残酷的要魔羯直视自己的本质与赤裸裸的真相，包括过去的名声让别人觉得现在的你没有成绩，被定为成旧时代的人，或觉得你没有想象中那么好，其实勇敢面对的人会发现并不冤枉，因为“这些都是过往的累积”造成，所以这波“清算”一路上得罪谁，被人排斥，脱离某个圈圈等，也算是趁机清理门户，“可以不用再应酬，理会”或“你们排斥我，我也可以放下你们”，放下过往，重新开始，未曾不是件好事。某个角度来看，魔羯的新开始保留了他的格调，也是环顾四周之后，最好的重新出发。 

幸而到了去年下半年气氛转变，魔羯纷纷接招，出招了，也许是端出作品，也许是时开口发声，也许是表现个性，魔羯用华丽的方式为自己寻找出口，那些冒险的企图与想法开花结果成为“我要什么”那些惊人的决定，人生急转弯，奋力一搏终把魔羯带向新的定位，不论评价如何，魔羯已无退路，只能往前看不能后悔。大跳跃之后虽然是另一个未知，但说真的，争取的新身份已不见得需要外界的认同了，因为“不认同又如何”？怎样都比停在原地等着被抛弃好吧?现在也只求自己舒服最重要，无需回头看也无需后悔。 

的确，从去年下半年开始，魔羯们有了“很大的跨越”，更敢“做自己”，更想表达，更敢公开，谈了恋爱，甚至生了孩子，生活情景与过去的死气沉沉完全不同了，也许是宁可“华丽到令人不解”吧。这样的急转变其后座力连魔羯自己都在适应中，至少需观察个一两年才会渐渐明白，也许透过2012,2013年人们对自己的评价，自己能否适应，人们接受度如何才能有结论，看了三年都看不懂的人也才终于知道：“原来什么是你要的”。

It’s a book published by 唐立淇 who is from Taiwan. Those who have always watch “nu ren wo zui da” will know who is she After reading about what she say for those Capricorn people (in year 2011), I suddenly felt a mixture of feeling dashing across my mind. Because IT’S SO FREAKING TRUE. Indeed I had a hard time fighting the battle in 2011. And I often wonder to myself, am I doing the right thing? Is this me? What do I exactly want? Should I continue to stay or move on? But it’s me, it just me. It’s just that I don’t want to continue living as a silent sheep. I admit I am afraid, that’s why I keep working hard. Because I need assurance. Assurance in everything. I don’t need to be famous. But I want to get recognized in the things that I work hard for. That’s all and simple. But somehow the path had made my way become complicated.

 

人还是不要学会习惯的好。

Tired. Hungry.

Jia you for 2 more months meow.

Memories Of 2011.

Hi 2012, my name is meow hui. Hope you and I will become best friends this year. Looking forward to the things that we will doing together. I had leave behind the bad and unhappiness memories that 2011 had given me and I’m bringing forward the good memories with me. I hope we will create more good memories together so that I could bring forward to my next friend. I know this isn’t going to be an easy year, but I hope I am able to challenge and overcome the difficulties that I had bump into. I hope 2012 will accompany me by letting me spend my days and time well.
*Cheers!!*

2011 actually had been a happening year for me. A year that I truly learnt a lot of things. From studies to working world to human. Thinking on the positive side, it had been a fruitful year.
All and all it had made me become a stronger person.

Thanks and BYE! 2011!

;)

I realized how happy i was if i look on the bright side  ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! 

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Bay day. *Sigh*

Wrap myself up likes a ball, with a bad sneezing and dry throat. Why am i still facing my projects at this point of time??
Hot water can’t help. Pills can’t help either. *Sigh* How I wish i could chop off my nose and spray some holy water into my throat.
Projects are driving me nuts, days pass by faster and faster. But up till now, nothing is completed.

My brain cells is suck out by all sorts of programming languages. Can i even complete the tasks within the time limit?
Well if only.

Thanks Sister! It’s Awesome!

Another M.A.C collection in my make up pouch! Love the first two shade the most! Wasn’t too red and pink, nice warm color teehee!! So excited to try it out! O.M.G! Love the bling bling!! So damn bling!! Don’t care if this suit Galaxy II , once I get the phone this will be that phone first wife! HA! Can’t stop looking at that two word

OF course, thanks to my lovely sister who gave me this two gifts!

P.S This year received a lot of make up! Firstly I brought 40bucks of make up stuffs, then yeqing brought my first ever make up palette. Now my sis brought me blusher! Really need to buy a bigger pouch already

And…Merry Christmas Again!

This salad from Watami IS SO DAMN FREAKING VERY AWESOME NICE!!!Yesterday dinning feast with BFF! NICE!
Make pasta for dinner! My family is so healthy until they brought wheat pasta =,= Now when I am outside eating white plain rice, I am like WOW VERY NICE! When all my friends was like “Like my house rice” LOL!
Finally I brought my Laneige water bank after a very very very long decision! 
Sis birthday on 26th! Hope she like the present I gave her. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! LOVE YOU! XOXO >.<
Brought this during my Suzhou trip, happen to see this in my drawer. Brought back great memories. Gonna buy another music box But those music box that are selling in Singapore seems quite x uh…hmmm 
Anyway can you guess what is the song for this music box? Christmas gift from yeqing! Thanks thanks and thanks a lot! (Y)MERRY CHRISTMAS AGAIN! *Why i am like so high?* It’s Christmas not Chinese new year uh.
Because I had spend my Christmas well! With great friends and happy family!  

Merry Christmas 2011!

Merry Christmas everyone! Enjoy my Christmas with BFF this year! Every year on this date, it will definitely be an unforgettable ones. Great memories that can be added into 2011 list  
Dine in at Watami at The Central, food was great but sadly the organisation of the seats wasn’t great. However we did made alot of laughters and made a lot of silly acts haha!
Another unforgettable events was that The Central was mass spamming bubbles! ON MY FREAKING GOD! It’s was so damn nice! Bubble flowing into the air like little piece of snow falling from the sky. The view was “awwwww”

Receive my xmas present from yq! My first ever Coastal Sand make up palette! WOOHOO! (Y)(Y) Thanks ye!
A joyful season, a happy mood!